To Clarify

I realised after I published the last post that if anyone does happen to read this then they may be a bit confused about my situation. So to clarify, at least partly:

The kids last summer at our local botanical gardens

• I have four children, all boys
  
• The first was born when I was 18 and his dad didn't want to be a dad
  
• When I was 19 I met my ex-husband who I then had two more children with
  
• When our third was only a few months old, the Ex moved out
  
• Somehow I managed to find myself pregnant again when my third turned one but this time with a guy I hadn't been seeing very long
  
• The guy disappeared when I told him
  
• Baby number four was born July 2008 and I haven't spoken with his dad since Dec 2007
  
• Ex Husband is engaged and had a baby girl in June 2008 (2 wks before mine was born)
  
• All the kids live with me and the three oldest visit the Ex

I also realise that this post opens me up for a whole lot of judgement and criticism. I am prepared for the first however I will not accept the second. I am writing here for myself, as a benefit to me. I have chosen to be completely honest about my situation and the mistakes and choices that I have made in the past. If you can not accept me and only want to criticise then please move along, no one is forcing you to read.