Tuesday, November 25, 2008

How I have spent the last hour

I just got an email reply from M. I sent him one last night after a short msn conversation yesterday afternoon. This is the email he sent today:

"I'm sorry, you're not going to like this but not long after I returned home I was set up on a blind date by a couple of mutual friends of mine and hers. We hit it off and have been on a date since and have plans to go out again on Wednesday. Albeit neither one of us wants to rush into a relationship, I cannot deny that I am dating. Where this goes I don't know its too early to tell for either of us but I have no interest in seeing anyone else.

I don't know how to say this without coming off harsh but I have to be honest I don't think we have a chance even if I wasn't dating someone now. I don't know what it is, I just don't have that feeling for you at least not the way you do for me. I thought I did once but I know we're not meant to be."

The first thing I did when I read this was cry. Then I called my mom and talked for an hour. Now Im here...and that's pretty much the order that I deal with everything in lately.

I want to be upset and mad almost but I know that is silly. His message was very direct like I asked him to be but it still stung. I had a suspicion that he was seeing someone and I wanted to know for sure...and now I know. What more do I want? Im upset that he told me he had the same feelings for me but never really did. I've known that there was no chance anymore with him but I didn't want to give up hope. There is no getting around it now. He very clearly does not want to be in a relationship with me anymore.

Wow, how did I turn into 'that' girl?


Mommy Daisy said...

Aww, that's tough. At least you know now. Maybe you can just take this as it is, greive a bit, and then move on. There have to be other great guys out there. I"m sure you'll find one for you.

Swistle said...

Owie. I'm glad he's not stringing you along, but that really is the bandaid-ripping-off-fast method he's going for, isn't it?

Astarte said...

Yeowch, what an A-hole. This was a near-miss, if you ask me. You almost ended up with a Giant Jerk.

In fact, I think this is progress. In the past, you've actually ended up with the jerks, but this time you were a stronger woman, and something about that turns a-holes off. Girl, maybe you finally have a-hole repellent! The next step can only be, non-a-hole attractor!

Chillygator said...

I came over from Amanda's blog, and I have no idea who you're talking about, but, wow, that really sucks! I'm sorry. That's so harsh and hard. )o: